The new year has come and gone, and the resolutions are fading fast. Whether we want to lose weight, be a better person, live healthier, etc, these goals tend to dissipate as the days go on. My goals for 2014 are simple in hopes that I may actually stick to them: rejuvenate my marriage, do well in school, make new friends, and of course be healthy- much like 90% of the people out there- though mine was for a very different reason. I need to be healthy to up my chances of being able to get pregnant, so I am hoping that helps me stay on track. What bigger reward is there than the chance of being a mother.
In 2014, I have found myself pushing my anger aside when I see baby news, I have tried to get closer to God by starting a women's Bible study, and I have finally begun to feel peace surrounding me. I still find myself discouraged from day to day, I feel as though I am in constant inner turmoil with the devil, when I see women complaining about their children. I have to stop myself when I feel that jealousy and rage fill me, no one is perfect and who am I to say that they are wrong for venting- Lord knows I vent myself enough. So I would like to start 2014 with an apology to those who were affected by the green eyed monster, I am wrong to feel anger when you all deserve support or congratulations. We all have different paths and I need to focus on God's plan for my life rather than demanding he sticks to the one I have for myself.
So here's to 2014!
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Jaylee, God's will for us is amazing! its also one of the biggest challenges for us completely surrendering ourselfs up to HIS will and not what we want. It's been a struggle in my life to let God control me instead of my trying to control him and tell him what I want. It sounds like you are getting off to a great start for 2014. I know that God has wonderful plans for us all. I'm excited to see how he works in your life! I will keep you and your husband in my thoughts and prayers :)
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