Holidays are without a doubt among the worst times of the year for those with infertility. Parents playing "Santa", all of the "Baby's first Christmas" posts, the countless "We're expecting a little present this Christmas" posts can turn a joyous time into a time field with anger, bitterness, and jealousy. So this year, instead of being angry and bitter for what I don't have yet, I am going to be thankful for another birthday (Christmas Eve baby over here), another holiday season with my sweet husband full of lights, love, and Christmas movies, another month of health, another month to be "mommy" to my perfect little puppies, our upcoming move back to San Diego, and most of all that our precious Lord sent His perfect Son to be our Savior. It is easy to get caught up in the idea of what we are lacking, but if we continually cry and complain about what is missing we will allow what is right in front of our faces to pass us by. I cannot and will not be a slave to my infertility, just like I cannot be a slave to unanswered prayers. I refuse to let another day slip by while I am under my cloud of self pity. So in the months and bright new year to come, I will do my best to look at things through rose colored glasses, and live in a world of beauty and blessings while I put my dreams in God's hands and let Him take the wheel.
Hugs, Kisses, and Prayers to you all and I pray the Lord blesses you with the desires of your heart, or at least the desire to put your faith in Him and trust His perfect timing. Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays from my family to yours!
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