[Infertility] Is it is okay to ask "why?"

The road of infertility is full of ups and downs, good days and days where you want to crawl under the covers and cry your eyes out, but every day the same questions lingers in our hearts and minds... WHY? Why not us? Why not now? Why is this happening to me(us)? Why her and not me? WHY CAN'T I BE A MOM? I cannot tell you how often these words fill my head and my heart. What did we do to deserve this? Why should a 15 year old be able to get pregnant and have an abortion or a couple neglect their child to death, but someone who has tried for years cannot even conceive one?  Is it understandable to have these questions? yes. is it right? no. We do not have the right to question God or His plan for our lives, because we only see what is right in front of us.  Is it hard to accept that things may not go as we planned because God has a bigger plan for us? ABSOLUTELY! But it is so important to remember that God sees the bigger picture, He sees where we will be in 10 years, He sees the circumstances surrounding those abortions or mistreatments, He sees the reasons he is making us wait, He sees everything! He has His guiding hand in every situation. Remember back to your first love, your high school sweetheart, the one you prayed would last forever? Aren't you glad you ended up with the man God had planned for you, even if you had to wait a little longer for it? I am! If you are one of the few that is married to their first love, imagine another time where you prayed for something over and over wanting nothing more than that thing(job, friendship, etc) , and God's plan ending up working out better than the plan you had for yourself? Now please don't think I am preaching to you, I am just as much guilty(if not more so) than you are, infertility leads to anger and impatience, but worse than those it leads to a mistrust in God. By asking him "why", we are questioning His power, so it is time to give our pain and anger up to God and let Him take His perfect time. LET GO And LET GOD! He is in control of our fertility, he is molding our futures and whether or not they include children is up to HIM.

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.

Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.

In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.

Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,

other times there were one set of footprints.

This bothered me because I noticed

that during the low periods of my life,

when I was suffering from

anguish, sorrow or defeat,

I could see only one set of footprints.

So I said to the Lord,

"You promised me Lord,

that if I followed you,

you would walk with me always.

But I have noticed that during

the most trying periods of my life

there have only been one

set of footprints in the sand.

Why, when I needed you most,

you have not been there for me?"

The Lord replied,

"The times when you have

seen only one set of footprints,

is when I carried you."

Mary Stevenson

Stay Strong My Sisters! I'll be praying for all of us!!