In HIS perfect timing...

So today I was watching Teen MOM 2, well bad idea for one I know, but more so it left me confused and angry... at God. I could not understand how God would allow people who choose abortions or are teenagers to have children, yet not allow it to a married couple who has spent countless nights crying, and praying, and trying to stay as strong as possible for as long as possible. While I am still angry and hurt, I am in good company biblically. God made several women in the Bible wait, and eventually did bless them with a child. I cannot keep comparing myself to others, while I have not yet gotten to the point where I can be "happy" for others, I need to let go of the anger and jealousy. It is not making my life easier by any means, nor is it helping my marriage, it is pulling me away from my faith which should be first and foremost in my life. I now know that I have to let this burden go, and stop feeding into the devil who is obviously using this circumstance to pull me away from God.

I will never let go of my desire to be a mother, but I have to keep my eyes on God and know that everything happens in His perfect timing.