Facing the ultimate betrayal...

What happens when someone close to you informs you that they are pregnant, only to follow up with "But I'm getting an abortion." I can tell you exactly what happens because this just happened to me. Your heart shatters, and all of those little pieces cut you so deeply on the inside, you are filled with anger-more anger than you can possibly imagine, sadness-a pit of depression, and most of all confusion towards God. Why would He give someone this precious gift who just wants to kill her baby, yet withhold that same gift from someone who would do anything for one? As I stood there listening to her ridiculous reasons for her decision(lack of job, inability to endure pregnancy only to give up the baby for adoption, crazy boyfriend, etc) and why she was so against adoption-neither of which made any sense at all, I was frozen in pain. I remember not even being able to move or speak for a few seconds as I took in this news. This person, who knows exactly what I have been going through for the past three years, confided in me about her "terrible news", only for me to want to cut her out of my life forever.  How can I stand to be in the same room as this selfish and immature person? How can I learn to move past this for the sake of our relationship? Honestly I don't think I could do this alone, and even with God's help it will take time before my heart stops breaking every time I see her. All I can do is pray, pray for understanding, pray for peace, pray for a forgiving heart, just pray because "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13