Adoption is not an option... at least not yet

One of the most common pieces of advice that I have received over my infertility journey is "Why don't you just adopt?" Aside from the obvious financial hinderance most people don't associate with adoption I have a very unique reason for not pursuing adoption at this point... I WAS ADOPTED. Now most people would say, "Well then you understand the importance of adoption." Yes this is absolutely true, adoption is a beautiful thing, a thing that saved my life. However, up until last year I never knew my biological family, I never saw anyone I looked like, or had a real "blood" family which means more to me than I can put into words. I want to experience a typical family (not saying the family I grew up with was not real, they were as real as any other). I want that instant bond mother's have with their children. This is very hard to explain, I absolutely adore my family, and the biological siblings I have since come in contact with, but I missed out on a very significant relationship-blood to blood from birth. My desire to be a mother stems far beneath just wanting a child of my own like everyone else, I want that real family connection that everyone around me seems to take for granted. Now don't get me wrong, I will adopt if that is my only option but I pray with every fiber of my being that is not the case. Hope you all understand!